Word With No Meaning

I gave more than i could , more than i should , more than i would !
Opened up my soul & emptied it from the start ; let everything spill out straight from the heart .
I managed to live up to certain expectations , not realizing i was the only one patient .
Accepting flaws & ignoring faults , although it meant being hurt , the same never seemed to be returned .
Life seemed so incomplete without what (at the time) seemed to be a necessity .
Failing to please & satisfy myself , only satisfying someone else.
Accepting less than i deserved , & giving more than what was earned .
Falling by myself , & picking myself back up ; & still falling with the same faith
as if I'd receive help .
Making unreasonable decisions & not including my thoughts .
Never did anything according to wah I'd want .
Why did I stay? Why should I stay ? Why could i stay ?
I couldn't see life without a human being ,
Who already began planning a future without me .
Living with false hopes & dreams which ended up being no more than a memory.
Nothing like what it seemed to be.
What once was "perfect" now wasn't worth it . What once was the BEST , is left in the past.
Something so GREAT feels like a mistake.
The love ,
the trust ,
the friendship
all has ended.
What should have worked , could have worked , or would have worked
is now jus a meaningless word. ©

*Amanda Lynn